Life. Try living life without real friends. All of them just pretends that they understand what you go through and tell you they're a person you can go to. You go through life trusting and believing that those so called friends aren't just deceiving but in the end you're sitting on your own once again left there all alone. Try living a life having never been loved you let yourself get close to people and always end up being shoved not even your own family will accept you for the real person you are and one of them even says this is true instead you replace the love you never felt with meaningless sex. Friends act like you're lucky and don't see the real sadness you reflect inside. The hook ups really tear you apart because what you really want to share is your kind, caring heart. Each and every day the tears build up, many nights you go to sleep wishing you would never wake up but every morning you start all over again the tears constantly flowing. When a friend comes to you finally and tells you not to be sad that you don't have it tough and you should be glad, you realize then that they don't really understand what it's like to constantly be alone inside and every day is a constant fight trying to make it all alone to the night. You hear someone else's grief and strife and hate to do it, but think "welcome to my life". What you write isn't aimed at someone personally it's how it's always been, and how it still proves to be
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matt, this says so much about us all, your words touched me deeply.
You are a great writer, I hope to see more of your work in the future.
very nice work matt,tahnks for sharing that with us :)
After reading your post this morning, I've thought about it all day. There is such profound sadness underlying your words, a sense of friendships unfulfilled, a lifetime of apartness.
I hope that your time at the FratPad will bring you some distraction at least, but better yet, a sense of belonging to kindred spirits — ones that have walked in your shoes, that know every pinch and every possibility.
Thanks for taking the time & courage to post.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Your words are touching and I hope that you can find the strength to overcome your tribulations.
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